Parashat Bechukotai

Ok, this Shabbos begins with three words, you know like, earth shaking words. Soul shaking words

The portion of this week begins, says, “Im Bechukosai Telechu,” and again sadly enough its translated very stupidly, its says “Im Bechusai Teleychu,” If you walk in my laws, if you do everything God tells you, then all the blessings will come upon you. Ok, sounds sweet, sounds like a Sunday school teacher telling his children, ok, listen, I’m your teacher now, if you do everything right you’ll get good marks and you’ll move to the next class and you’ll have a day off and its absolutely disgraceful this translation. Ok, now listen o this, what it really means. First of all the question is, when God wants to tell us something it says “Vayidaber Hashem El Moshe,” and God spoke to Moses, tell the children of Israel. But here suddenly, it didn’t say God says to Moses, tell the children. Like God’s just saying so. It’s not like, like talking to somebody. You know sometimes, -imagine if I love a girl very much and I want to tell her something but I cannot tell her face-to-face so I’m putting a little note under her door. It’s a little note from me and it’s also not from me, right. I mean it’s so deep that, I don’t know. Ok, open your hearts. Everybody knows that a lot of things are in my hands, which I can do and not too consciously, and there are certain things that are really not in my hands. But it doesn’t mean they don’t depend n me. They are not in my hands but they still depend on me. It depends on what kind of a person. Not what you do but it depends where’s your inside. Where’s the inside of you. Ok, to go we understand it a little bit more on a psychological level but I want you to not even think of that. Just empty yourself of that. Listen to what he says. Two people walk on the street. Let’s say I and Linda walk on the street. I lost 5 dollars and Linda lost 5 dollars. Ok, I make Linda holy and I am not so holy. Linda’s 5 dollars were found by a person who has five children and was just davening, who was begging all day nobody helps me. Suddenly the greatest miracle happened, you found five dollars. She went to the grocery store to buy some food, and your 5 dollars, which you didn’t know about kept the whole family alive. It was not your doing. The same thing happened to me, god forbid, I don’t want to say anything because it’s so bad. Another person walks down the street and lost five dollars and here god forbid is somebody who wants to steal and he has already $95 and needs $100 to buy a gun and is short 5$, he found this 5 $, bought himself a little gun, made a little hold up and that’s what he did. Now listen to this. Both people, on a conscious level, on an act level, both of them 100%, every, they did everything right

Well the answer’s very simple. This does not depend on your consciousness, how much free choice I do right. The question is where is your inside. Where is your inside? If your inside is so holy then even the 5$ you lost can’t be the cause for anything wrong in the world. It just can’t. But, if your inside is not that holy, even if consciously you do everything right, but inside your not that holy, then 5$ can fall out of you and be the cause for something.

Now, listen to something even deeper. There are two people walking on the street, the same story, both lost 5$. And both were picked up by a person that it mamesh saved their lives. Now listen to this. One person let’s say walked in Borough Park and lost 5$ and another Yiddele who was just about giving up on the world because nobody helped him, found 5$, was just about starving to death with his family and then those 5$ arrived and he walks into a little, a sweet little grocery store in Borough Park, and this Yiddele, -listen to this, this Yiddele has the 5$ in his hands. And those 5$ are burning in his hands. He doesn’t know why. He thinks, I have to do something good with these 5$. Strange, I got that from this holy beggar, I’ll put them aside And the next time another poor man comes in, I got to give it to him to save another life. He gives it to another poor man. This poor man walks into another grocery store. Those 5$ are burning. The other person who also lost 5$; the poor man found them and he walked into, lets say, what’s a big supermarket, whatever its called there. Ok, he bought food, 5 $ got lost at the cashier and the manager found this 5$, you know, anyway he got himself, he got himself a good time. What else is he going to do with 5$. Nothing. And now listen to this. I want you to open your hearts in the deepest way. There is a level, unconsciously, where prayer reaches. There is a level where even prayer doesn’t reach because I can pray I should do this, I should not do this. This should happen and this should not happen. There are some things so far removed from me that prayer doesn’t help cause it doesn’t reach there but that, you know which reaches there? “tzaakas halev,” there is something crying inside. There is such a thing, which is deeper than prayer. I learned this last week and I want you to know it changed my whole life. Cause I always knew that prayer is the deepest thing so the Ishbitser says there is something deeper than prayer. There is a certain place that even prayer doesn’t reach. Prayer doesn’t reach and yet something is reaching there: crying from the deepest depths of my heart. I don’t mean sitting there and crying cause I’m already conscious of it. There is something inside of me, mamesh, “tza’akas halev.” My heart is crying. I want you to know, sometimes the heart is crying, that means the heart is crying, as an act, crying. And then there’s something “tza’akas halev,” the heart itself is crying. The deepest depths there is. Ok, listen to this. Everybody knows B’chukosai in Hebrew; the real translation comes from chakikah, mamesh, carved in 9:39. You know some people do god’s will. It’s sweet but by some people God’s will is carved into their souls. Carved in, carved in to the deepest, deepest depths of their own consciousness. Carved in mamesh like from one side to the other. So this is what the Midrash says. The Midrash says “Im,” can, if, you know, if, but the real Midrash says “IM” means mamsh loshon Tachnoni and so to speak God is begging us. God is begging us that we should serve him, that we should serve him on the level of unconsciousness. –Sub consciousness. Now listen to this. You know, sometimes two people do the same thing. Let’s put it this way, on a very simple level. You know, today they have those wedding halls, in the same hall there are 15 weddings going on, right. So imagine we are walking around from one hall to the other. You walk into the same hall with 15 little halls and there are 15 weddings. There are 14 weddings and you would never know who the bride and the groom would be if they weren’t dressed up with their, -imagine you look at those brides and unless she would wear white, if she wore green you wouldn’t know she was a bride cause she looks as stupid as anybody else, right. Or the groom, nothing, sometimes mamesh sometimes you can see this has go to be the bride, mamesh she is shining, she looks like she is the queen of the world, right. So what’s the difference? As simple as it is. Is it carved in? Does it come from the deepest, deepest depths of one’s souls or is it just a conscious act. Besides, on Sunday at 4 o’clock they are getting married. Nothing to do with inside. Now listen to this unbelievable depths. When you see somebody is shining that means what they are dong comes from the depths of their soul. If there is no shine about them then they can do everything right. Because shining does not come from the outside act. Shine does not come from the outside act. I Can put on tefilin for 2 million years and have the same cross face like a drunkard on the street. If I put on tefilin from the deepest depths of my soul, peace. Then I’m shining. But then I want you to know. I want you really to open your hearts for a few minutes. You know there are certain things you are praying for and there are certain things you are more than praying for. You’re mamesh crying for. Crying for. The deepest depths of one’s being. The absolute deepest depths of my being. And if God or holiness or goodness has not reached there yet you’re still an outsider. You’re still an outsider. And if it reaches there then, that’s it. Then you are on the way. Then you are on the way. You know, I don’t have to tell you friends, this is so deep. It’s everything in the world, right. You can take a father and a mother and consciously they are the best father and mothers but there’s nothing carved in. And maybe it’s already carved in on the level of prayers but unless it reaches the crying of the heart they still don’t know what it is. They don’t know what it is. And sometimes it’s the highest level, if it reaches the crying of the hearts, you know, deeper than prayer. Mush deeper than prayer.

Question: is the crying of the heart mean compassion? No, you see it’s so deep that you cannot call it anything because if you call it that means you it is conscious. You see, it’s so divine, so deep, so high. Its beyond everything there is, you know. You know, Let me tell you something very deep. You know, like, if I walk up to you and I tell you, -you see anything which has words is conscious. Let’s say maybe we have some words for the unconscious but this is the unconscious of the unconscious you know. so it has no words. It doesn’t have a color; It’s just crying, you know, like, the deepest depths there is.

I mean if you reach that level it’s mamesh Gods level, its mamesh a divine level, I mean lets say if you – Question: how do you affect it? Its like its there –

So how do you get there? Or you have it or you don’t have it. So the answer is, and here the Ishbitser comes with an unbelievable Torah. Everybody knows that we are counting the Omer. We are counting the days between Pesach and Shavuos. Ahh, now he says the deepest depths. He says anybody that wants to know, which is really a gevalt, what is G-d thinking of me, you know, what am I to G-d. So he says, you are to G-d whatever G-d is, -how much G-d enters your unconsciousness, those deepest depths of you is how much you are to G-d. You are not to G-d what you (unclear) G-d wants you to do certain things but this is not how important you are to G-d. You know how deep between people, the same thing. People are meaningful to each other not for what they do, you know. For how much depends on their unconsciousness, their higher consciousness. The deepest depths. Everyone always talks about this midrash you know, this Shabbos. Dovid Hamelech says so I woke up; I thought I had to do some business. But then my feet carried me back to the Beis Midrash, to the syngagogue. to sit down. It’s in the medrash on this week;’s portion. It’s a beautiful midrash and there are certain midrashim that he explains and he makes them less good, you know, but you know what the Ishbitzer says? what was Dovid Hamelech saying? Dovid Hamelech was saying even if I would wake up one morning and I really thought all I have to do in this world is but then my feet, -you see the feet are not connected to your consciousness. The feet are always connected to your unconsciousness, to your super consciousness. Remember we were learning a lot of times, you feet, remember – How come for instance some people on Simchas Torah feel like dancing and some people don’t feel like dancing. Or lets make it more simple. You come to a wedding and they pay you 2 million dollars and you don’t want to dance. And some people, you come to a wedding and you want to dance. Why is that? If this is a higher consciousness wedding, so your feet feel it, right. Your feet only pick up what is the deepest depths. Anything, which is outside they don’t pick up. Let’s say you go to a shul on Simchas Torah and they are not dancing. You know what that means? They are conscious Jews. They know exactly what to do and what not to do. But inside? Empty. And if you come to shul and mamesh they are dancing like mad – Especially on Simchas Torah you don’t study the Torah, the Torah is closed, right. You don’t study. Its just unconscious. Dovid Hamelech says even when I woke up in the morning and consciously I didn’t remember anymore that I am a Jew my feet went back to shul. My feet. Its very, very deep, you know. 3:42 You know how deep this is. There are days when consciously we think we have 2 million things to do. And suddenly for one second we have this flash, right. This is somehting completely different. My feet carry me. And I imagine we make plans for this and this, -imagine you know I , -you know sometimes this boy has 50 girl friends [something moving around the mic?] and I’m, G-d blesses you, you have strong feet, right. Something flashes through you. So the Ishbitzer says, you go back to the beginning. Remember the beginning, the earth shaking, really this is –those three words are, shook up heaven and earth. The beginning of the next portion. “Im B’chukosai Teylech,” –If you walk in my laws.

Ok, you remember I told you before before, chukka the Ishbitzer comes from the word “Chakikah,” to be carved in, and the Ishbitzer translates chukah means that which is carved into you. So he says “Teyleychu,” listen to this deepest depths. You know who’s the master of this carved in of the unconsciousness? Your feet. “Im B’Chukosai Teylech.” If a Jew wants to know how deep is my heart, how deep it can reach watch your feet, where do they take you. “Teyleychu,” walk. Where do your feet take you? You know sometimes it’s so true. Someone wants to go somewhere; my feet don’t want to go. Sometimes I don’t want to go somewhere and my feet say, listen brother, you’re going. You want to stay here, its ok, you, know, we are going. You know. And a very deep thing, It says, “V’halachti,” you should walk in G-d’s way. Ok, you can translate it simply meaning, you know, G-d is good, you are good. You know some people mamesh walk in G-d’s way, you know. Their feet are connected to G-d. their subconsciousness.

Then I have to tell you one more Ishbitser Torah to understand the whole thing. “IM,” is translated “if,” “Im B’chukosai Teylechu.” But the midrash, the Zohar Hakadosh says IM comes from the world please, I’m begging you, and the way he translated it from the Ishbitser, in a nut shell I’ll just translate it from out holy brotherleh, we were learning before there is such thing as praying but then there is something deeper than praying: the crying of G-d, Much deeper than praying. He says there are certain things that prayers don’t reach. And praying you can stop praying. Crying for something? That is something else, right. So this portion begins IM, if you reach the level of crying, crying for G-d, crying for Yiddishkeit, crying for the Torah, then B’chukosai, then it will be carved into you and then Teylechu, your feet will carry you. I tell you it’s an unbelievable Torah, you know, its unbelievable. You know, I don’t know if I can make myself clear to you. Take three words, which are absolutely meaning less without this, right, G-d says if you will do my thing I will do your thing. Meaningless. And the Ishbitser, you know what he did to those three words? What the Zohar Hakadosh did with those three words, right. Now listen to one more thing. How do you know if you reached that level? This is a way out Torah and each year I am learning it, it cuts right through me, it also cuts through you to. The Ishbitser said if you want to know if G-d reached your consciousness heartbreaking, you know, it put me to shame. He says if you can launch at any person in the world, make a joke of the person then G-d has reached you. G-d has reached you. Because, you know what it means if I know G-d has reached me in the deepest depths, that I stand at all before every person, of course, what do I know its carved into me. Ok, consciously maybe this person is the devil. What do I know, what do I know about the feet of this person? What do I know? You don’t. You don’t know anything. And maybe consciously I do 100 favors to a person and maybe this person unconsciously is doing too many favors a second. What do we know? We don’t know. So the Ishbitser says this Shabbos is the depths of the depths of the depths, this Shabbos; because, you know, if you walk around and you think you did G-d’s will how can you know?. G-d means deeper than that. When you say I’m very deep, it’s deeper than that. Its much deeper than all that. And you think to reach G-d all it takes is to do right? It’s got to be a little deeper than that. Take between people. I can do a person 2 million favors; it doesn’t mean I’ve reached them, they’ve reached me. I can say I love you, sweet, you can love me back. Does that men we’ve reached each other on this absolute unconscious, higher conscious carved in level? It takes more than that. Much deeper than all this. And the hardest thing is you cannot stand on Mt Sinai unless you reach that level. Obviously. That’s what it is this world, you know . . . . .Just one more deep thing and then we got to stop. …Is deeper than reason, right. Lets put it on a very simple level, you know. If I tell somebody I love you and I have reasons, this is only after I love them I have 2 million reasons to love them, right. So this is not the reason. So whatever G-d gives me a reason, even G-d’s reason for Shabbos, right, even G-d’s reason for what’s going on in the world, G-d’s reason for creating the world, G-d’s reason for creating me is also only the outside. So how do you reach that level to have a taste? So that’s what he says. Every day Dovid Hamelech says I want you to do my business and now he translates it this way: Not that I want to do bad business; I want to do G-d’s business. I want to do mitzvah’s I want to go learning but then suddenly my future reminded me its got to be deeper than that. Even to do G-d’s business is not enough. Its so deep you know, so then my feet were shining unto me this deepest depths; this G-d’s depths. Take me back to the synagogue. So he says the synagogue is the house of G-d. That means its that place where G-d is shining into you that which is beyond everything. It’s a gevalt, you know. It’s so deep, you know. One more important thing. .you now just to laugh, just to walk you have to keep on growing? Walk, walk, walk. How do you really walk? Not with your consciousness. I will tell you, you know yesterday I did ten mitzvas, today I did twenty, Sweet. It doesn’t mean you walked. So you didn’t walk. Walk means you’re not in the same place you were yesterday. To change positions is only if its more carved in. if you can say today its more carved in than yesterday then you walked.